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I couldn't think of a title for my page so I just added a few dots to give it something. A few weeks ago we received a message on my phone asking us to due a special fast for are Bishops family. The news was that his wife had just found out that she had a very serious form of Leukemia. Of course we gave a special prayer and Colby fasted. (I couldn't because I'm nursing Elijah) The next day we saw her at church and went and said hello and asked how she was feeling she replied a little weak but ok. So after church I took over some cinnamon rolls for her family but they were asleep. So I left them with her two boys. After finding out what was going on I could help but be so sad my heart was yearning for some way that I could help them out more then just making them a little snack. But there was nothing but prayer that I could do. As the weeks have gone by things for her have got a lot worse. It started with a rash from some medication that they were giving her. She had gone threw a treatment of Chemotherapy and was having a hard time keeping her food down. After a week of that she had fevers on and off and the rash had got worse. They figured out what the rash was and stop the medication that was causing it and started a new one to get rid of it. This last week things had changed for the worse. Her sisters and brother were tested to see if they would be a match for a Bone Marrow downer for her transplant. But none of them were a match. So they told her that it would be around two months till they could find a done for her. That was this last Monday. On Thursday she had suffered what they thought was a seizure so they were going to do a CT to find out. On Friday they had found out the she has some bleeding behind her right eye in her brain and that she also had a few spots of infection on her brain as well. As this point she is on a respirator because she can't do it on her own. Yesterday the found out that the infection spots were worse then they thought and they wanted to take her in to fix the bleeding. But her platelets were to low so they were going to try to give her some so they could operate. But no such luck today. Today after church we all found out they were going to take her of the respirator. :'( *Tears* My heart is trying to understand things like this every day. They got news today that her infection in her brain is A LOT worse then they thought. So her family has decided to take her of the respirator tonight at 9pm after her daughter gets in from Portland. All I did on the way home was cry for this family. They are so wonderful and such great people that this is so hard for them. What a trial! They have 4 boys and a daughter two of the boys are still at home and there father has been working all week and being able to see her on the weekends. Lucky for them they have family that has been by her side ever since she was admitted. I can't help but look around at my life and what I have and the things that I see. I find myself looking into space thinking about how lucky I am to have the family that I do and if anything like that ever happened that I would want people to be there for us. I also feel like....well I'm not to sure? It's a feeling that I'm not really sure how to explain. It's a mixture of emotions. Sadness, confusion, happens, love and a lot of other feelings all stacked a mile high. I her visiting teacher and really wanted to give her a message so I was able to write her an e-mail with it. After i wrote it I kinda felt a little self accomplishment. I think that it was something that I was supposed to do. I cried a lot while I wrote it because I could feel the spirit as I wrote. The words just seemed to flow out of me. I was amazed at how much I had to say. This months lesson was wonderful to teach and I have two more woman to visit. It was very appropriate for all that has been going on. I'm not really sure what else to say? I'm kind of at a loss for words now! So I will just end in this-
I share with you my Testimony that are Farther in heaven is so amazing that he has a wonderful plan for all of his children. I know that the trials we receive are all things that we can handle and that are Farther in Heaven wouldn't ever give us something that would couldn't. That with are Faith we can over come anything. I bear you my Testimony that there is always someone that cares and that there is always someone that is trying to do something for you even if you don't know it. I know that this is the true Church of Jesus Christ and that his love for us is so amazing and that someday we will have the chance to live with him again. I hope you all have a wonderful Sunday and that when you pray you pray for every blessing that you have and thank are Heavenly father for all he has done us and are wonderful family's:)